Has Had It.....WITH SNOW!!!!

Wow! I don't know about anyone else that lives in my part of the world but I've had just about all of winter I care to experience for one year! Its storm after storm after storm! Seriously..we are out of places to put the white shi...I mean stuff :)

Last Friday night we had a real whopper! Saturday morning I had to call my son to come and shovel out the door so we could even get out of the house! He was in snow up to his waist and then had to dig the shovel out before rescuing us (by us I mean me, my landlord and his gf). I've never seen anything like it! But on a happy note...only 20 days until the first day of spring! :)

So not much new to report really. I'm feeling better about things in most ways. In other ways I've decided I'm not gonna worry about it. I am just going to enjoy spending my time with the people who want to spend time with me. They are my true friends and wonderful family. And that is all that is important!

I've been doing some stitching. I dont know if I mentioned it before our local stitching store had a fun idea in their newsletter and I've decided to try it. They suggested to have 4 projects on the go and switch every week...so you work on one for a week then switch, etc. The months that have 5 weeks well the 5th week is a free one to work on whatever you want! I have my 4 projects ready and so far I must say I really like the concept. I tend to get bored when working on something for long periods of time. So this is a great solution!

We also have started a little "lunch and stitch" at work! It started as a couple of us getting together in our lunch room for stitching for an hour. We are now up to 6 of us! We eat then stitch and talk. Its a great way to spend a lunch hour and goes by way to fast! I leave a small sampler project at work that I work on (it doesn't count in my 4 projects).

Other then that I have booked a weeks vacation in March after our March break. I am not going anywhere and have no plans. I just needed a break form work. So I will sleep in, rest, stitch, visit the grandkids, and hopefully get together for a day with my stitching sistas for a day of stitching!

So thats it for now...until next post smile often..if nothing else it makes everyone wonder what your up to!

Feeling.........

Tired, cranky, ticked off, pushed away, not part of, left out and discouraged! That about sums things up in my world!

I definitely need a break from everything. It would be so nice if I could just get away for a few days...sadly it is not financially possible. So I will do the next best thing and just keep to myself until I can sort out these feelings.

The last thing I want to do is say or do something I will be sorry for. So I think I will just have a "vacation from life" for a few days and sort out my feelings and what I can do about them. I'm tired of feeling like everything I say or do is wrong or in some type of battle. I will take my share of the blame but I certainly won't be a martor and take it all. Something needs to give pretty soon or I will do what I have always done when things get like this...simply walk away. Easier in some situations then others (like when its your kids) but I don't think I can take anymore.

There is an old saying that says something like "its better to be alone and lonely then with others and feel lonely". Those aren't the exact words but is pretty accurate on how I am feeling.

So don't I just sound like a happy ray of sunshine!

Until next post be happy and appreciate those that love you...I know I am going to :)

And The New Year Is Off To A Good Start!

Well my previous post had some mention of things I would like to accomplish in 2011. Some will take a longer time to complete but some I am happy to report have been crossed of the list! Small accomplishments but accomplished never-the-less :)

I have finally (after 3 years) started my L&L Angel of Healing! That is my BIG piece I am working on. I am till plugging away at my Ink Circles pattern and have picked up the supplies for a really cute sampler and I've orderd another pattern from my local stitching store that will be in next week. So there are my 4 projects I wanted to work on. The plan is to work on one for a week then switch to another for a week and so one. The intent is to keep me interested and if nothing else give the illusion I am actually accomplishing some progress! Monday is my "switch day"..this week it has been the Angel I am working on. I don't know if she has a name given to her already but I am calling her "Louise" after my mom. It is in her memory that I am working on it so it seems only fitting :) I'll keep you posted on the progress and someday when I figure out how to post pics I'll do that to haha

In other updates I have gone back to WW to help me shed some unwanted weight. It has worked for me in the past so I'm hoping with some hard work and determination I can be successful again. I need to get out and exercise more too....I'm currently looking at some options for that...but holy crap gym memberships are not cheap! I may have to resort to "mall walking" during the winter. Althoug I l ike the idea of going to some type of fitness class too. For right now I am just going to concentrate on getting my eating habits under control and in a couple weeks I'll get to the exercise part....baby steps for me!

Other then that not much new going on her. My son is moved out and in with his friends so I have some quiet back haha. We certainly have been getting lots of snow lately and I'm not a fan f that..but it IS winter so I guess I should expect that

Well it time for stitching I think and my favorite TV channel...The Food Network! I love those shows!

Till next post smile often...if nothing else it makes everyone wonder what you are up to! :)

Happy 2011!

Here we are....another year over and a new one beginning. Lots of wonderful things happened in 2010 and some not so good. I am doing my best to focus on the good things and say goodbye to the bad.

I seem to be starting off the New Year a bit off balance. I have no doubt I will find my feet again...I usually do. There are things I want to work on in myself, my home, my job, my life. One thing at a time I will hopefully cross things off of my list. Yes I made a list! Not "resolutions" but just a list of things I would like to do/see/accomplish/achieve in the year ahead. With some determination and putting one foot in front of the other I know I can do it!

I've spent the last 2 days upset and crying over things that are happening. My feelings got hurt and that is never fun. I was thinking yesterday and I actually had a "ah ha" moment! Funny how all of sudden the light just comes on and things you have been driving yourself crazy over just up and slaps ya in the head! haha....Me being me when my feelings get hurt or I feel like I'm being left out my immediate reaction is to put up walls. Now anyone that knows me knows my walls do NOT come down very often or easily. So it is an absolute sign of trust when I do let it down and let anyone in. This is with any type of relationship (romantic, friendship, family, etc.). Is it the best way to react to those situations? NOPE! But its how I have done it for years and old habits are very hard to break! I am going to try a different approach tho and just let it go and do what I can to help myself get thru this rough patch...that is really all I can do and hope things will work themselves out. I have faith and trust that they will :)

I will be starting my "healthier me" plan again! It didn't work out so well last year but thats ok..I'll put the chips and dip down yet again and start over haha...I swear I have no idea how they seem to end up in my grocery cart...my theory is someone in the store puts them there when I'm not looking and then I don't see them when they go thru the cash..not sure how accurate that is but you never know! haha...The old saying "if you feel good on the inside the outside will follow" is my inspiration for this...that and the fact my health is suffering a bit..nothing life threatening or too too serious but I need to take care of myself before it does get out of hand. I'm going to go into it with no real expectations other then to make better choices and get some exercise in. Will I still find those pesky bags of chips in my grocery cart? OF COURSE!!! It just won't be every week haha...Moderation..something I have trouble with haha

I'm also going to work on getting out more. I am single and would love to change that and one thing I have discovered is that that is not going to happen with me sitting home all the time. Surprise of all surprises they aren't just coming up and knocking on my door! So I am going to get out more and hopefully that will help things along.

My little apartment could use some TLC so that is another thing I am going to work on. I am going to take one room at at time and pick up everything I would like to do in that room and then do it! My first room is the bathroom...1. because its the smallest and will be a good one to start off with and 2. it really needs some love haha

In the stitching department I am finally (after 3 years of having it around) going to start my "Angel of Healing". As soon as I figure out how to post pics and such on the blog I will do that. It won't be the only project I work on. I tend to get fed up and bored if I don't switch projects out here and there. But at least it will finally be started..kind of appropriate project to start considering how I have been feeling lately..I just thought of that..huh!

So thats whats been going on with me and thats what is going to be going on with me. I'm not much of a writter and my words don't make much sense to most I'm sure. I just write what my fingers type most times and hope for the best haha

So until next post may the New Year bring all of you lots of happiness, good health, love and laughter!

Tis the Season........

Yes...tis the season....for stressing over shopping, baking, wrapping, and money! I really dislike this time of year. For me it always means stressing over money and making sure I get everything that needs done done. Not always easy thats for sure! It somehow always gets done but I still stress over it!

On another note...my son who has been camped out on my couch for the last few months has finally started to move stuff out and into the place he is moving (sharing with a friend).....wait...whats that I hear....oh I know....IT ME DOING MY HAPPY SONG AND DANCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I love the boy to death but man he gets on my nerves at times! He has some growing up to do thats for sure! His 23 year old dreams....don't exactly match up with his pay cheque thats for sure! Oh well he will live and learn....and we all know if he needs to come back home for a bit the door will be open......as much as he drives me crazy I will miss having him around...even tho he isn't around much...(and if anyone tells him I said that I will deny it!).

Other then that not much to report. My great "plan" has certainly fallen to the wayside thats for sure. I do have some ideas for getting back on track but so far thats as far as I've gotten. Its too hard this time of year with all the baking and food and drink and such.....I mean it IS Christmas! :)

I did have an exciting night on Sunday! I was home alone eating my wonderful homemade spaghetti sauce and pasta. Shortly after I finished eating I noticed a strange feeling in mouth and throat...interesting I think to myself........then a short while after that I feel like my tongue had doubled in size....huh......isn't that weird.....finally it got a bit difficult to breath...OK now I panic! So off to the ER I go! No idea what it was but I definetly had an allergic reaction to something! I have been making that sauce for years exactly the same way with exactly the same stuff....the only thing I did different was used fresh mushrooms and added a few spices and a bay leaf...all things I've eaten before. Well I will be carrying Benydryl in my purse from now on thats for sure! It certainly scared the crap out of me! Needless to say my son has a LOT of spaghetti sauce to eat! haha

I haven't been doing much stitching lately. I did organize my stuff to start my Angel of Healing by L&L. I was in my local stitching store a while back and I over heard on of the ladies talking about projects and getting bored. She said what she does is she has 4 projects on the go and changes projects every week....that way she never gets bored and yet sees progress on her projects. For months that have 5 weeks she uses the 5th week as "free" week to work on whatever she wants. I thought that was a really good idea so I am going to start doing that after the holidays and I'm not so busy. The Angel will be one, I will continue working on my Ink Circles project and plan on digging out a couple smaller projects as well. It sure sounds good in theory...lets hope I can put it to good use!

Well I must run and get a couple things done. It will be an early night for me tonight. I'm beat since I didn't fall asleep till very late (or should I say early this morning) and was up early for work...so a nice early night of going to bed early and reading for a bit sounds like just what I need!

Until next post.......don't forget Santa is watching! :)

Its Begining to Look Like Winter!

Snow snow snow and more snow!!! The Santa Claus Parade was tonight and the weather was actually kinda nice for it....by that I mean it started snowing...you know those great big snow flakes that you love to see on Christmas Eve...the only difference is on Christmas Eve I'm not standing outside getting wet and freezing my behind...I'm inside looking outside admiring the snow flakes...with a nice hot beverage! Oh well the sacrafices you make for Grandkids! They sure had a great time. Watching their little faces and smiles as the floats went by was worth freezing over :)

After the parade I drove my son and grandkids home...my daughter in law was going out with her friends (something she rarley does). What a miserable drive home after tho! Between the traffic and the bad road conditions I thought would never get home...the usual 15 minute drive took almost 40 minutes! I was very happy to see my driveway!

Not else much to report really...I'm still working on the cross stitch and will post pics once I figure out how! I've also started knitting some dishclothes...figured I would throw one in with some Christmas presents this year...the knit up quick and I can do them while watching TV in the evening.....when I work on my stitching I need to focus a bit more...and I'm not very good at that haha

One of my stitching sistas was the hostess at our retreat a couple weeks ago and gave us all a journal of gratitue....each day we are to write 5 things that we are greatful for...its funny when she first gave it to us I thought I would have a really hard time finding 5 things every day..other then the usual...health, family, friends, etc.....turns out......I don't have any problem at all! Its nice to take some time at the end of the day to relax and think back on my day and write down my greatful things....I have also started jounaling again in my book that I had started a long time ago....just writing thoughts and feelings...I find it helps me put things in perspective sometimes when I do that....been working on some things in myself lately...the healthier eating had kinda taking a back seat...as for the exercise....well its not happening either! I really need to get off my butt and get back on track...I am eating better but sure but still need to get more exercise in.

Every year at the end of the year I make a list of things I want to do the following year...I try to get threw as many as I can but rarely get threw the whole list...so what doesn't get done in that year goes to the top of the list the following year....2 of the things left on my list are going to a movie by myself and going to a restaurant by myself...a real restaurant where they serve you...fastfood places don't count...so I'm gonna work on those in the next month and hope I can at least cross one off....the rest will happen...I just have to make up my mind and do it....just like when I quit smoking....I made a decision and have stuck with it for 22 months....if I can quit smoking I can't see why I can't do the other things! So baby steps and slow moving might be the way I go.....but at least its moving! :)

Until next post....laugh till some kind of drink comes out your nose! hehe

Stitch N Beach!

Well another very successful retreat has come and gone! The name of our little getaway is new..its now called "Stitch N Beach"...isn't that the cutest name! You could really have some fun shuffling letters haha!

Because of the holiday we decided to go up a day early...OMG an entire extra day of stitching, laughing, talking and of course eating! It was beyond wonderful I can tell ya! The only thing that would have made it even more perfect is if the one stitching sista that wasn't able to make it could have come....she did however come up Friday and join us for our ritual supper out! It was great to see her even for a little bit tho! Hopefully she can make the spring one! Oh yes...we have already booked our cottages for our Spring gathering....do you think we are excited about these weekends! haha

And let me just talk about the weather! OMG!!! It was soooooooooooooo beautiful! Saturday some of the girls actually sat outside in tank tops and...are you ready for this....got a little sunburn! Can you imagine..a sunburn in November!! It was absolutely beautiful...no jacket required when walking on the beach, we had a couple windows open and there were even mosquitoes! It was more like a beautiful sprng day then November! After all the rain we have had it was a most welcome change!

I was able to get quite a bit of work done on my current project...if I knew how to post picks and links I would but I am challenged in that area...(HELP PLEASE!!!!). It is a project by Ink Circles....I love it more and more as the progress continues! That is always a highlight of going to retreat...seeing progress on everyone's projects..and a couple of the sistas are actually very close to finishing their projects!

Well I'm off today but am sitting around waiting for some phone calls to be returned....damn insurance adjusters and car dealers! Yes I had a small fender bender a week ago (I was rear ended). Not alot of damage to my new (to me at least) SUV (who I have named Bluebelle) but it will need a bit of TLC. I have had a sore back and neck but it is improving thankfully!

Until next post...be happy, smile often and laugh lots!